Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Anxiety Sets In

As I sit here waiting to go to work, bussing tables and waiting on the ignorant of society, I begin to wonder where my life is really heading. I know that in a few weeks it is going to take me to places I've never been before and even to new experiences that will hopefully change me for the better. But what about after that? Where is my life going after that? 

I've begun to consider going to grad school after my year in Korea is over, but the question still remains on what I want to do with my life. Going back to school is just a stopgap to the potentially boring existence that I might end up leading. Not to mention all the questions that come with it, like how to pay for it, what to major in, where to go, etc. It all seems like endless nothingness, and unfortunately, I have to decipher the cryptic messages among the void. 

As for my trip to Korea, my recruiter has told me that they will be shooting for a August 28/29th flight date, but that still depends on my visa and interview with the Korean consulate, whenever that occurs. Hopefully soon, since I'm contracted to start work on September 1st. It all just seems so close and yet so far away. It's freaking me out and I still have a lot to do with little money and little time left. 

:'(

1 comment:

holls said...

I love you, babe, and have complete faith that you will find your true path soon! MWAH!